For those of you who know me understand what and how I feel about animals. I wanted to be a vet when I was little then understood that I may have to put them down and decided against that. I have had dogs and cats over the years...and a very special kitty named Ewok for I had since I was 9 years old...died of cancer when I was 21. That was the worst time of my life. About a month after she passed I got 2 kittens. Daisy Mae and Sassafrass. (Daisy and Sassy).
This was taken when they were about a year and half. Sass is on the left and Daisy is on the right.
I am and will forever be a cat person. I love them like I love my child. They are my best friends. And sadly on Tuesday, the 21st I lost one of my best friends.
I walked down the hallway that morning to get ready for work and found Daisy laying behind the couch on the floor. She was not moving...and from what we think we believe she had a heart attack. Daisy was a very sensitive kitty and took on the role of the protector. She protected her sister Sassy all the time. Sassy was the runt of the litter and from the day we took her home until the day she passed she would always let Sass eat first. She'd let Sass do everything first. I of course was devastated to find my precious Mae kitty gone...but now I only have Sassy...and she won't understand where sister is.
I don't mean to write this to depress anyone...I just need to talk about it. It helps me I think. I am sooooo sad. But with work this week I haven't really had time to vent and to really get it out. But now I can. Today I think Sassy is starting to realize that Daisy is really gone. She keeps walking up and down the hall going into each room...meowing...looking for her. It is the saddest thing I think I've ever seen. Sassy has become so much more attached to Jerid and I over the past couple of days. Just breaks my heart.
I think with Daisy passing it was actually harder on me than when Ewok passed. I was able to prepare for Ewok...I made the decision to put her down after not eating for 3 days. But with Daisy...to find her at 6:30 in the morning...worst feeling in the world.
I don't care who thinks I'm crazy...you just don't understand what it's like to have something to love...and that will love you unconditionally...just for being you. It's amazing how much you can love an animal...how much joy they bring to your heart. Their habits you will never forget...and everytime you do something that you know you shared with them...like when I get out of bed and make sure to look before putting my feet down...because that's where she slept. Doing the dishes and having her come sit on the counter and watch...then sniff my nose....or when sad...she would come snuggle me...the kitty who did not cuddle. I need her now.
Oh I miss my Mae kitty...she was a sweet one. I'll never forget you Mae.
